No Use

What's this urge
To shed so many tears
It's like all around me
Are my worse fears

Attacking me
From every side
I just want to get off
This terrifying ride

I try to seek help
But it's just no use
I can't seem to get rid
Of these God awful blues

I have been given a life
Which I can't seem to control
When people see me cry
They never try to console

I know I have friends
But why don't they see
That I have a wrenching pain
Inside of me

Eating me up
Like a sharp knife
Sometimes I think
I'd be better to end my life

But I stick it out
Just in case
Fate takes me
To a better place

*2/27/2003