Im Sorry Mummy

I Wanna Write You A Letter Mummy
One That You'll Never See
I Really Wanna Apologize For Things
And Your Disappointment In Me

I Wanna Tell You I'm Really Sorry
For Going Secretly Out That Night
With Those People You Didn't Like
But I Thought Id Really Be Alright

I Didn't Think He'd Hurt Me
Or Take So Much Away
I Didn't Think He'd Take My Safety
And Leave Me In This Horrible Way

I'm Sorry I Came Home That Morning
And Pretended Everything Was Really Fine
I Was So Utterly Ashamed With Myself
To Recover I Needed Allot Of Time

I Apologies For Not Telling You
That All They Said Was A Lie
For Letting You Think I Was A Bad Girl
I Tried So Very Much Not To Cry

I'm Sorry I Started Cutting Myself
And Hid It So You Wouldn't See
I'm Sorry I Took My Whole Bright Future
And Ruined It Just Like Me

I'm Sorry Id Close Myself Up
And Wouldn't Speak To You
I'm Sorry I Drifted From My Brothers
Because I Couldn't Make It Through

I'm Sorry That I Told You
What He Did To Me That Night
I Shouldn't Make You Worry Like I Did
I'm Sure Things Would've Been Alright

I'm Sorry I Made You Scared
That Id Maybe Cut Way To Deep
That You'd Find The Very Next Morning
That Id Die Within My Sleep

I'm Sorry I Wouldn't Talk To You Anyone
About what i Was Hiding Inside
I Thought It Was Really Useless
Every Time I Spoke,I Cried

I'm Sorry You Couldn't Sleep
Worrying Each Night More And More
Trying To Help Me Through It All
Feeling Guilty Cause You Couldn't Before

I'm Sorry You Saw Me Suffer
And Watched Me Fade Away Alone
I'm Sorry You Watched Me Cry So Much
When No-One Rang Me On The Phone

I'm Sorry You Watched Me Stare
Out The Window To See The Sky
Because I Was Scared To Open The door
Thinking He'd Be On The Other Side

I'm Sorry I Wasn't Your Little Girl
And I Caused Oh So Much Pain
I'm Sorry I Put My Family Last
And Gave You Ever So Much Rain

I'm Sorry I Gave Away My Dreams
My Ambitions And Hope Too
I'm Sorry I Through Away Something Forever
The Bond I Once Shared With You

I'm Sorry I Forever Scared Myself
And I Wasn't So Pretty Anymore
I'm Sorry I Built A Wall So High
One That Didn't Have A Door

but More Than Anything
I'm Sorry I Wasn't Ever There
I'm Sorry You Thought I Didn't Feel
Or That I Didn't Care

I'm Sorry You Didn't Really Know
If I Was Really Alive Or Dead
I'm Sorry Ever Hug You Gave Me
Didn't Even Register In My Head

I'm Sorry I Was Like A Ghost
One My Brothers Couldn't Adore
I'm Sorry To Them All So Much
Cause I Wasn't A Real Sister Anymore

I'm Sorry I Made You Weep
But Theres Still More Tears To Cry
Because The Moment You Find This
I Have Already Decided To Die

So I Wrote This For You Mummy
With All The Tears God Has Dealt
Just To Tell You Every Hug And Kiss
Never Really Went Unfelt.....

Thankyou Everyone,This Poem Is For My Mum.Ill Always Be Ever So Sorry To Her.Comments And Votes As Always Are Greatly Appreciated.Thankyou All