Everything You're Not

Should I?
I don't know
Will it stop my pain
Will it make things seem OK
Will it help
Will it get me through another day
Should I?
Answer me that
Will it work this time
Or have I become immune to the pain
My body is so numb
Yes I will
Metal slides across my wrist
I'm sorry that I hurt you
Just so you know it hurts me too
My life's a disgrace
Blood keeps me sane
I'm not giving up my knife
I know I promised
But it was wrong of me
It was stupid of me to make that promise
When all along I knew it was one I couldn't keep
I have to cut
I'm not that strong to stop
I've tried so many times
But it seems to be the only thing I got
I'm sorry I'm everything you're not