Time line.

Writing a time line of my life
The future and past
But I miss out so much
From the first time to the last

I’ll write a proper one
Without missing what has not been told
I’ll write what keeps me down
And will forever till I grow old

Born in 1990, sister followed that
Moved soon after for her needs
Went to a nice nursery and
Met my one good friend who listened to my pleads

Then things started to fall
She was older so left me by myself
I left a year later to a different school
Became just another book on the shelf

Happy enough for the first year or two
Still young children playing along
But many people come and leave
I become more alone and felt I didn’t belong

Then my auntie left forever
Died and caused my mum too much pain
Things went down hill more and more
Became less and less sane

I didn’t see her laughter
Her love for me began to disappear
When I wasn’t expected to be sad
She held me down with fear

I had to go to an after school thing
My parents had to work more than before
But what I found there was no playing
Just a girl who pushed me to the floor

I done anything wrong
She pushed me and punished me
Crept up and made me full of fear
She was happy when tears and blood she did see

Those who called themselves friends
Laughed and called me names
They messed with my mind
Played sick twisted games

I may not of suffered as many have here
But I lost one thing and I lost it forever
They took my confidence and smiles
And did not care about my pain whatsoever

Oh don't let me forget
1997 first time I made myself throw up in pain
1998 first time I cried them crimson tears
2006 last time the blood dropped from the vain

I wish I could forget the way they looked at me
But I know they where telling some truth inside
I just see an ugly girl and I won’t sing a note any more
I cannot smile any longer, for when they were piercing my skin, inside I died