I know your up in heaven,watching over me.
Trying to show me right from wrong,even when i don't want to see.
You taught me so much,never were you a bore.
Life's gotten so difficult,i miss you even more.
I remember standing by your casket,all those years ago.
Waiting for you to wake up,not knowing it'd never be so.
Every choice i make i wonder what your opinion would be.
What you would be thinking,if you'd be ashamed or me.
You died before the others were born.
They never knew you the way i did,they never had to mourn.
I miss when i was a kid,sitting on the porch with you watching the sun go down.
Being 18 is harder than people think,I'm sad without you around.
I wish god would let you help me,your guidance i desperately need.
The family is being torn apart,and nobody else can see.
I wish we could walk and talk just like we used to do.
Because everything is so much harder now,and i so badly i miss you.
