Why Did You Leave?

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Crying silently as I watch you slowly kill yourself
To think you are tired of living in your life
I thought I could change your mind
But you decided to slit your wrists with a knife

I did not try to pry inside your head
Instead I wanted you to know I was here
I ached that I could not help you out
I am sorry I did not understand your fear

And now I wish I had told you I am sorry
I warned people of your sudden despair
No one seemed to believe me anymore
They all just did not seem to care

If I could give you back your old life
I would do it in a heartbeat
To give you one more chance to live
And not lie dead at your mothers feet

I can still remember that fateful day
When your mother walked into your room
She stopped cold when she saw your body
And shrieked in mournful doom

The police had come to examine you
The coroner said you were gone two hours
And now your father is a broken shell
He sits alone staring at broken flowers

How could you be so cruel and selfish
To kill yourself that day
Leaving behind so much hurt and sadness
Perhaps you knew but did it anyway

I saw your girlfriend at the funeral
Her eyes were reddened with unshed tears
Beside her was your family
And it led to my worst fears

Why did you have to give in to your pain
And leave me so alone, friendless and sad
Your final act is driving me insane
I cannot stop my feelings of being mad

Sometimes at night I lie awake
And remember you before you changed
I sometimes feel my heart will break
When I remember you when you were deranged

How I hate you when you chose to leave
By slitting your own wrists to bleed
Your blood soaked into your bedsheets
When death loomed near did you for your life plead

Now that you are gone forever
I feel so much helplessness that will not end
With you gone I do not feel clever
My heart no longer seems to mend

I walk around unable to see
Instead of living I feel only death
Since you suddenly up and left me
I think now of my last breath

Did you think this wouldn't affect us
That we wouldnt know you are dead
I hate you why did you slit your wrists
That afternoon upon your bed

Why did you have to leave
So suddenly that day
I no longer know what to believe
I have forgotten how to pray

Did you know how much pain you would inflict
With the simple act you have done
How you would devastate your family’s lives
And somehow harm everyone

I feel insecure with you not here
I miss you so much everyday it takes my will
To get up and face a new challenge
To know I am alive and breathing still

Sometimes I would sit and contemplate
If my own life I should take
I never really noticed but now I do
That you had been someone who is fake

Why did you take the knife
And with it slit your wrists
Why did you end your life
And add you name to the death lists

I cannot stop thinking about you
About how you have hurt me
You left me alone messed up inside
I do not know if I can continue you see

It has been awhile since your death
And everyone still displays their scars
I wish you knew what would have happened
But you never looked ahead that far

We are still wondering why you did it
Of course you cannot tell us from the grave
You are gone but why did you leave
I wish that someone had helped your soul to save