He kisses my wrists and squeezes my hand. He examines every red line, every scar, and looks to me with a loss of words. The rain is falling harder than ever now. You sigh as you pull me closer. I’ve waited all my life for these moments, these moments of silent perfection. You turn to me, in an attempt to break the silence. As you push the hair from my eyes, you ask me what I’m thinking about. I pull away and my throat begins to close. I take a second and finally answer “nothing†while I stare at the floor. A sudden look of disappointment falls upon your face. I try to save the moment by kissing your hand. You begin to smile, and I fall all over again. “I love youâ€, I whisper in your ear as I wrap my arms around you. Tears well in my eyes as I attempt to breathe. We stay there, holding each other as if the end of the world is upon us… and I feel as though it is. As if once you let go, it’s over, and I’m left alone again. You get up to leave and I grab your hand. Inside, I’m begging you not to go… but all I can manage to say, as you look at me in confusion, is goodbye. And once again, I’m left alone, with the things I never said.
