You've tested me again and again.
You leave me bleeding now and then.
First it starts off small.
Then the tests grow big and tall.
First with my patience then my faith.
Then you wonder why it's this life I hate.
You curse me with anger and hatred.
Everytime I use either my time is wasted.
I hate this life you've given me.
I wish I could set this desolate life free.
Free for some time.
I know that I would hold it close because it's mine.
But in this life.
I'm supposed to play nice.
Supposed to play by the rules.
But instead I play by what I am given or whatever it is that you choose.
I can't live my life like I should.
Because all I've got is negetive there's nothing that's good.
They say live everyday like it's your last.
I wish today was it because of my past.
Time and time again I wonder if your even listening to my prayers.
Time and time again I wonder if your even there.
In your eyes my life's work isn't good enough.
Even if my childhood has been rough.
I've been through it all.
But I've only come this far to let you watch me fall.
You laugh at me for all that I'm not.
But actually for you I'm giving it all I've got.
I ask you for forgivness.
But what am I supposed to make of all this.
God forgive me for my sins because my nerve is down to one.
God please forgive me I don't know what I've done.
But silence is all I hear.
Your not there and you made that clear.
I talk to you but I don't know what to say.
I'd talk to you now but I'm kind of having a bad day.
So I hope that you read this.
And turn my hatred into bliss.
I've run out of help and other things to do.
So this is a letter from me to you...
