Somebody Is Saving You

A little girls sits
Staring at a star
She reaches up
But it's just too far

She takes back
Her tiny hand
Knowing she can't
Achieve what’s planned

She cries as she
Remembers she's forgotten
Cries as she realizes
This is rock bottom

And she lies there just
Staring at this black sky
Wanting answers, reasons
Needing to know why

Her dreams were
Snatched under her nose
This sad road was not
The one she chose

And now she has
Lost all she believed
Her world is dead
And she has grieved

But now she can't
Cry anymore
She doesn't know what
Is left to live for

Her mom was her angel,
Buried six years ago
And time drags by
Ever so slow

And tonight
She's tired
No longer strong
No longer inspired

She stand on the edge
Of the cliff
Suddenly her body
Goes stiff

She can't jump
Her legs refuse the motion
She stares down
Mournfully at the ocean

Wishing she was
Drowning there
Away from the world
Dead, without a care

She can't jump
She walks back
Lies down again
Stares up into black

Staring up there
She screams to the star
'Why, God why, did you
Let this go so far?'

She curls up
Empty and afraid
Angry and miserable
About the suicide never made

That night
As she lies sleeping
There sits an angel
She is weeping

She bends down
Kisses the girl's head
'My baby daughter
I had to make you live instead.'

© Copyright Sharon Ardern 2005

* This poem is a way for me to say that when we aren't able to kill ourselves, there is a reason, perhaps a lost loved one saving us, because they can see all the happiness that awaits us. Even if we can't.