Have i ever?

Have I ever told you,
You mean the world to me,
Have I ever mentioned,
You fill my heart with misery?

Have I ever told you,
About the tears I cry at night,
Have I ever told you,
How my soul is filled with fright?

Have I ever talked to you,
About the scars I carry on my wrist,
Have I ever showed you,
The knife I carefully twist?

Have I ever told you,
About my blood stained knife,
Have I ever mentioned,
I didn’t want to live my life?

Have I ever showed you,
My poems I write when I cry,
Have I ever heard you listening,
When I told you I wanted to die?

Have I ever showed you my frown,
Or have you only seen me smile,
Have I ever told you,
Nothing in my life is worth while?

Have I ever told you how I feel,
Or how you broke my heart in two,
Have I ever mentioned,
It was all because of you?

Have I ever explained my past,
Or what I want the future to be,
Have I ever told you,
There is no future for me?

Have I ever mentioned my pain,
Or the hurt I keep inside,
Have I ever told you,
How badly I wanted to die…?