God are you there?

Every moment of everyday
i sit before god,
hoping he'll listen
as i pray.
"Take these tears
take this pain,
make all my hurt inside
please make it go away.
I want to take my life
but everything around me
tells me to fight.
I'm trying, i really am
but it seems like nothing will ever mend.
Do I keep trying?
Just let me know.
Help me understand
why I cant go.
Why I cant just walk away,
End my life.
End it today.
God I need your help.
I really do,
all my hope and faith
belongs to you.