Movies...Alone.../ remembering me being normal..

I sat home and watched a movie today,
Pretending you were there ,
Thinking of what you might say,

I Couldn't really go,
Since i had to take a shot,
And i didn't wanna take it with you,
I choose that with out a though,

"Please ,Please come"
You said over and over,
But i couldn't I'm embarrassed ,
Embarrassed by D,

This thing isn't normal,
And i can't take it no more,
I wanna be normal,
Just normal once more,

Please for an hour?
Please for a day?
Please for a second?,
Please Please just for a little more,

I pretended i was normal,
And we were at the movies,
We were laughing together,
And even making funny noises,

We made fun of that movie,
The one with those girls,
The ones we made fun of,
The ones we just couldn't ignore,

I pretended to throw starburts,
At my cousin with you,
And remember that game we made,
Just for me and you,

I wanted to see you ,
Oh , oh so bad,

But i can't and thats why I'm mad..