I dont

I don't care anymore if i let you down,
I'm not used to having you around.
but i don't feel right now that you've flown away,
please, please, i wish you'd stay.
i don't feel like screaming,
but i choke as I'm dreaming.
i don't feel like loving my arm,
i don't want anymore scars form my self-harm.
i just feel like giving up this fight,
ill take the whole bottle and then say...goodnight.