What Im In

My heart hurts to think about
The situation I am in
I've let myself get attached
And fall in love again

You have to power over me
To crush me and make me fall
The hold you have over me
Without saying any words at all

I sit here every day and night
And even when I am with you
Looking for some kind of sign
Wondering what to do

The sight of you makes me weak
Like I have no back bone
I fall asleep late at night
Clutching onto my phone

Do I have a reason to worry?
Or is this how it will be?
Feeling just a little out of reach
Praying one day you will see

I love you with all my heart
I've never wanted some one so much
I never missed someone so bad
Or longed for their touch

Usually I didn't care
My heart never got broken
I never let down my guard
Or let someone "get in"

I love you so much it hurts to think
That what we have is not real
I wish I had a way of explaining
All these things I feel