Wasteful words of confusion

Committing to faith,
Leaving the circle,
Waiting on answers,
Praying for a miracle.

Searching my heart,
Trusting in friends,
Leaving behind my fears,
It's time that I surrend.

Wanting, hoping, wishing and praying, changing, loving, crying, and swaying, leaving, starting, and ending alone, screaming, whispers, gasping a moan, tortured, tangled, confused, left behind, thinking wondering, fearing my mind, looking, and caring, and giving my all, learning, and climbing with each new fall, committing, giving, and trusting in you, finding myself not knowing what to do...help me now.