I can't control all of these feelings I have inside,
I feel as though my mind, body, and soul have died,
I promised him that I would never do it again,
I promised myself, but I feel it as I'm buckling in,
Feeling the rush as it trickles down my arm,
I'm just trying to feel better, I don't want to do harm,
But it tears him apart, and that makes it worse,
Why did God place upon me such an evil curse,
I feel like a hypocrate, always yelling at friends,
But nothing else works, it's the only thing that mends,
Why do I have to be such a horrible person,
I let down the people who matter, I'm wishin,
Wishing that I can make it all go away,
That the clouds will part to reveal a brighter day,
I've been a bad girl and done the bad thing,
Somebody save me, wake me from this dream.
