She who lives to die

She's lost everything
she doesn't know where to go
people pass fast
but time passes slow

she wants to go back
back to when she had friends
but all of it changed
her life's at its end

she stares at the stars
each and every night
hoping and praying
god will end her fight

god doesn't grant her wishes
so the knife she takes
"god please what did I do?
just do me a favor and gimme a break"

"I didn't wanna do this
but it seems like I have to
cuz I don't want to suffer
through all the stuff I've went through"

so then she starts cutting
around and through her vein
"as long as I die" she says
"I'll go through this horrible pain"

the night grows dark
and her screaming fades away
she had been living the life that she hates
up until this final day