I often think to myself
Why…?
Why do I like him
Finding nothing in return?
Why do I gaze after him
Wondering what he’s thinking?
I know it’s not of me
I’m probably the last thing on his mind
There’s no point in liking him
I know he’ll never like me
I try too damn hard to get him to notice me
To want me
It’s useless
Pointless
A waste of time
I know nothing will ever come out of this crush
I bug the shit out of him
And only hurt myself more
I gain nothing at all
But yet I feel like I’m losing more with each passing day
I’m a joke
A laughing stock to him
I mean nothing
He claims I can trust him
But I don’t think it’s true
I want to hate him
‘Though I know I can’t
My heart’s torn in half
One half screaming for mercy
While the other calls out his name
I know I need to stop
But I just don’t know how
I hate myself for letting him do this to me
Using…
Abusing my heart
Acting like he cares
Only to turn his back and change
I can’t take it anymore
I want so much to end it all
Just let it all go
With nothing to fear
Nothing to lose
Take the blade
And pierce my heart
I won’t miss out on much anyway…
