Slow Cold Shadow

I wish I could be stronger
Maybe if I was more
Maybe then I could handle it longer

Insecurities plague my mind
Fearing that fulfillment
I will never find

Their excuses I believed

The clouds have come again
Day has become night
And now the return of the pain

I know what I’m missing now
That sunshine has gone
The shadow even colder the second time around

They all move further away
I can see them tip toe
But what can I say?

Loud as I usually am
But does anyone hear me?
Good listeners are harder to be found

The day moves slower
In this coldness
and my mood just gets lower

I let them get away with it too many times
even when they were wrong,
I was the one to apapologize