XXxX TrYiNg XxXx

I'm sorry about the way Ive been
i never realized how much you were hurt
i never thought about you
the fact i was treating you like dirt

i never thought life was this hard
all the options you got to take
making everyone happy
and all the sacrifices you got to make

I'm at the point in my life
where Ive got to settle down
to work hard at my goals
to turn my life around

i no I'm hurting allot of people at the moment
but I'm hurting too
i know Ive got to change
because of my love for you

the way I'm treating people at school
the way I'm treating you lot at home
i just want the best of life
and not going through it alone

I'm scared of everything
in this big wide world
I'm not the tough one as i make out
I'm a lonely little girl

i just want you to see my ambitions
and to be able to one day say
'wow thats my daughter'
and i love her in every way

I'm going to change my life
and sort out my head
because your the reason
that I'm still here and not dead!

so I'm sorry mum
i know Ive been following the crowd
but i swear down now
I'm just trying to make you proud

i love you mum xxxxx