On my knees

I get on my knees
And bow my head
I clasp my hands
And pray I was dead

I'm tired of pretending
That i am as happy as can be
While i really have to hide
The pain and anxiety in me

No one knows this is in my heart
No one knows this is how i feel
Whether there really something wrong
Or i am just making a bigger deal

I just want to be myself
I'm tired of being someone I'm not
All i am doing it figuring out
Who i am and what i have got

I want to go to a place
Where i am not judged
A place where i can be me
And my name is not smudged

A place where i do not have to worry
Is that me they are looking at
That i will not be a scapegoat
Or blamed for this and for that

I kneel by my bed and close my eyes
I fold my hands and pray real hard
I pray to be taken away; far away
Away from this place, in every regard