My tears reflect everyone else's happy faces, as i cry alone in a crumbeled heap on the ground.
This ongoing sadness inside of me, it never ends and i hate it so much, its like a stomach ache that never goes away...
I'm torn from my body
a lifeless lonely soul
looking down on my aimless shell that used to be the happy me, but no longer. I make so many mistakes and I can't push them out of the way, because the past never leaves my mind
It haunts me all the time
all the things i did
all the things I didn't do
help me
help me someone
i don't know how I got this way
don't know how to end it
I wanna crack a smile
to be a special someone
that someone actually can't wait to see the next day
instead of someone that people are afraid of because I bring them down
I want so much
yet nothing at all
I look over all the scars on my arms
are these all my bad days? My horrible times? Then I look at the oozing scabs with the blood still flowing from them
and I cry
looking up at the gray sky
where no butterflies are out to play
they are somewhere else
and as they smile
their metamorphosis complete
I sigh the tears still dropping
catching the misty light
if only i could change
into someone that I could love
to learn to love myself
I'd run forever just for to have a glimpse of the new me
My tired soul needs to be saved
who will be my savior?
