I tell myself

I tell myself I don’t need you,
but deep down I know I do,
it’s hurting me inside,
I just should have lied,

memories fall through my tears,
haunting my ever fear,
seeing you look at her the way you did to me,
it burns my insides and is killing me,

I’m beginning to realize how much I cared,
going someplace I never dared,
carving the feeling of you by my side,
the funny feeling I got on the inside,

I gave you something that meant everything to me,
but you returned it and let it be,
trying not to miss you,
is harder than anything I can do,

this feeling is so normal,
I should have been more careful,
I trusted you with my heart,
but like every guy you tore it apart,

it’s killing me,
I can’t just let this be,
you gave up on what we had,
thinking that loving you was bad,

blocking these feelings everyday,
makes me want to breakdown and give away,
trying to stay strong through this,
is something I never wished,

I said I’d cry no tears for you,
that’s something I couldn’t do,
seeing you everyday,
makes me want to break down and say,
I loved you