Take A Good Hard Look

The scars on my arms represent the pain of this mess
My tears represent the chronicle sorrow that will never pick me up
Everything is wrong and endless
My fairytale is just made up

I want to tell how I feel
But then I know you'll get upset
And just seeing you, seeing me in pain
Is worse than it could get

I seem the flaws written all over my face
I just want a happy home
So my heart can be in place
And maybe a hug or to, a chance to be with you

Many people stare and seem to be blind
They don't know who I am
Or what I'm thinking in my mind
I guess it comes naturally with everyone looking at me, with that look of hatred

I try to ignore the insults
Those unwanted words circle through my head
I'm already home from school and I'm on my bed
Crying up a storm I can't take anything anymore

I try to throw it away
But it won't seem to go
These endless feelings many people know
I can't seem to think straight
To know whats bad and good
I've done so many horrible things
Most to myself and others
I've completely lost myself
Its very hard to tell my mother

My friends are hardly there for me
I ask myself are they even my friends?"
I thought they were suppose to be there
When this pain wouldn't end

I just look in my mirror
And think this is what they see
This depressed cutter
Also known as me

And I just turn away
With a thousand tears coming
From the useless heart inside
Take a better look
Thats exactly why

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