Yet i still love you?

I lie awake in my bed,
thinking about you,
how you broke my heart,
and made my cry,
oh man i cant forget you,

Its funny how,
what used to make me happy,
now brings tears to my eyes,
you hurt me so,
but yet i still love you?

I want you back,
but you hate me,
you said you loved me,
but that was before,

I cry every night,
because of you,
you threw me to the floor,
you had a knife in you hand,
and said i was no more,
but yet i still love you?

I got up out of my bed,
and walked downstairs,
i open a drawer,
and pick up a knife,
tears running down my face
i take the knife,
and slowly cut,
a straight line down my wrist,

You know its true,
you hate me,
so do u care?
i killed my self,
because you weren\'t there.