The unnamed feeling

I don't even know the word
for my emotion
not anger
not sadness
not pity
not madness
it courses still
though i know not its name
it doesn't prevent it from running through my veins
until it makes me pick back up the knife
makes me want to take my life
until it calls me to break promises
and mutilates my mind
the unnamed feeling is like everything else
though it doesn't have a name
it can still hurt you
and it can still break you