Left Behind, Heartbroken

Left Behind, Brokenhearted......

I remember the first day we saw each other
Secretly I couldn't keep my eyes off of you
You were my best friend's brother
So I knew I had to
You were so mean to me
So I figured you didn't feel the same
I just had to leave you be
I never knew what you really wanted,
And that was me
You hide it so well
Until that one day....
As I sat there on the couch, alone
I was so tired
I just wanted to lay there all alone
Then I noticed you came to me, right by my side
I told you I wanted to lay down
And I asked you to move
You just look at me with a frown
And said for me to lay in your lap...
So thats what I did
It was so weird
Before then i looked at you as just a kid
And now I lay there in your arms
After that day,
I thought we'd be together for a long time
"I love you baby!" was what you would say
But somehow, someway that all changed
I guess it wasn't meant to be
Us, you and I
I could never really see
What you were doing to me,
I trusted you from the beginning
Only to find I was let down
Look what you have done
Made me feel like a clown
Why did you do it?
Everyone told me it before..
But i didn't listen
I believed you more
I didn't even want to believe my best friend
When i think of you
And everything that comes in the end
Tears come to my eyes
You told me I was your only one
You were my first love
And now its done
I will have to live with the hurt
I never thought this could happen to me
But I guess I was wrong
I just wanted us to be
I wish everything you said was true
I thought you were my life, my every breath
But that life is in the past
It was my fantasy I guess
I only wish that life would of last
I never knew how much I truly loved you
Until you were gone
I wish you wouldn't have let go
Now my life seems to have no meaning
I always felt my heart belonged to you
And now that it is broken, my life feels as thought it is missing
You left it in a locked case,
And your the only one with the key
You took everything I had
Nothing I can ever get back
You make me so mad
But somehow i still find myself yearning for you
My life is endless
Without that feeling of loving you and you loving me
But one thing still remains the same
All of this unforgettable pain
All the pain I feel inside
Makes me want to die
I just want to go somewhere and hide
So it will all go away!!!

I wrote this poem the other night about me and my ex.... please comment and rate my poem... thanks tons!!!!!