Walls of dieing hope

As a child, I was naive
Way back then, I did beleive
But I'm a human, so I age
I realize now I'm trapped in a cage
Love comes to me, but I can't go to it
So when it leaves, I guess thats it
If I try to chase after it, I'll come to a wall
Then turn back, and then I'll fall
Fall to the darkness, down to the hate
Wishing and hoping it wasn't my fate

But when a dim light shone
Hope had arrisen
No longer alone
It wasn't my prison
Yet after so long, i'd come to that wall
Will God let it happen? would he let me fall?
A tear of dismay rolls down my face
Hoping for freedom, the end of my race
My face from love, torment, confusion
My whole life is just one big illusion

Lie upon lie, grin upon grin
My eyes fill with tears, my heart begins to thin
Why must I live, and feel so much pain?
Taken by force, my soul has been slain
Poem upon poem, tear upon tear
Now I live in darkness, I live with my fear
My fear of love, the fear of rejection
I hate who I am, there is no correction
Everyone else does to, so its not that bad
No more reasons to cry, nor to be sad