I hate

I said I loved you,
you said me too,
but you never loved me,
you only loved you.

You said all the words
I wanted to hear
you whispered them sweet
and soft in my ears.

You knew all the things
every girl dreams you’d say
and you said them to me
in that oh so perfect way.

And you knew all along
that this was just a game
but you didn’t let me in on the rules
so I didn’t get to play.

I hate that you cheated
that you used me this way
I hate that you think
sorry makes it all ok

And every time I tasted
your kiss on my lips
you were slipping a little farther
from my fingertips.

And I tried so hard to hold you
but you just let me go
and all the times I tried to love you
you’ll never know

And I smiled that smile
when you said we were done
‘cause what do you say
when your whole world is undone

how could I tell you
you were breaking my heart
you just wanted goodbye
without all the sobby parts

so I gave you what you wanted
and I even walked away
and I’m dying a little inside
because I see you every day

and you’re laughing and she’s smiling
and you’re holding her hand
and she’s something to you now
she’s more than just a friend

and all the times you told me
you’d love me forever and a day
I guess that all those promises
have melted straight away

and sometimes I’m angry
and we both know why
and sometimes I wonder
but most of all I cry

And I hate that you left me
And I hate that you lied
I hate that you hurt me
and that you made me cry

And I hate you for saying
so many things that weren’t true
but most of all I hate that I can’t say
that I hate you.