The real me

Just walk away
As I slowly die
Because you don't see
As I sadly cry

I don't understand
Why I even bother try
To live this life
I just don't know why

I always fail
And crumble into space
But I'm afraid to show it
So I put a fake smile on my face

But one day
I will be open and free
Just one day I will
Become the real me

You will see
The pain I always feel
You will be shocked
And wonder if it's real

Trust me I know
That my life is very sad
But I have to let you know
Before I go mad

I cut my wrists
And slowly watch the blood
And sometimes I wish
That I would be up above

I smile when I do it
It makes my life at ease
I always seem to pray
"Lord, take me away please."

I'm glad I told you
And now you will know
But please dont cry
As I allow my scars to show

I'm happy you can
Understand and see
That I'm really very scared
And hiding the real me