So weird

So weird.
So over.
Closure?

You were there,
Then you weren’t.
No warning,
No signs,
No reasons,
Just gone.

I can’t understand,
Sit in confusion,
Wonder what happened,
Blame myself,
Then you,
Then no one,
Just sit.

Waiting for normal to return,
Wanting normal?
Thankful for the eye opener,
Glad for change?
I wonder,
You were there,
Then you weren't.

I was happy,
Now am I sad?
Is it over?
Does that make me glad?
You showed me the real you,
Just how much you cared,
Or didn’t.
I wonder.

I still breath,
Life goes on,
Think of you lots,
Then sometimes not at all.
Is that bad?
Am I losing our memory?
Was it worth keeping?
I wonder.

Do you wonder?
Do you think?
Ponder?
Miss?
You were there,
Then you weren’t,
are you happy?
Sad?
Glad?
I wonder.