My final Moments

My final moments will be hard
As i take the blade in my hand
I will write down the words that will
Maybe help people understand

I use it to get rid of my pain
And some of this growing hate
I just wish they could leave
Just up and go, just levitate

I'm sorry if you will hate me for it
But I can longer take the pain
It's like something penetrating me
I'm sorry it's to hard to explain

Ignore my tears as i write
This poem that will probably fade
I'm waisting my time
I should just do it now with this blade

Sorry to my family and friends
And all the people who loved me
But one more day on this world
I can not even bare to see

I love you mommy
But i have to do this I'm sorry
Keep on living your life
And remember don't get daddy angry

Oh, my sister Sadie
I will always love you this is true
But please don't blame yourself
This is what i had to do

To all the people that hated me
You see what i do to my self
I might of been mean and popular
But i kept this secret to my self

Don't even bother crying
Because my life isn't worth the time
So i will die without a scream
I will be as silent as a mime

So now is the time i slice it right
I see the red pouring from my skin
But now i will be and angel
And not feel the burn from within