Dieing for love

You don't understand you don't have a clue. I love you more than words could express and I don't know what I'd do if I lost you.

One day as we were taking a ride across the town. You made my whole life change and you turned it upside down.

You said that our relationship needed to come to an end that that we could no longer be together and you could no longer be my friend.

As you started to walk away my heart was shattered in two. There were no words said my emotions were the things that showed you what I needed to do.

As I started down the street for home the words you said kept replaying in my head. And all I could think of was after 3 years of a great "I love you relationship" it's now all dead.

You don't know bad you hurt me and you never will. I just wanted to tell you I love you still.

When I reached my home the tears came out. What the hell happened to us. What were those 3 wonderful years about?

As I ran through the door and ran up the stairs I opened up my room and ran to my bed.

I thought to myself I can't keep living this life I'm living. I'm better off dead.

As I decided I wanted to die a silent tear started to run from my eye.

The tears coming through. Why the hell did you leave me? What did I ever do to you?

As I went to the closet where I hid my secret stash I took out something I would forever save that you gave me during a class.

It was a note that said how much you care. You said that you'd always love me and forever be there.

As a close my closet up for the very last time I think about the poem you wrote me entitled forever mine.

As the words I heard deep inside my head. I lay there thinking of you crying on my bed.

I pray to God that everything will turn out okay and I pray that you'll call me and save me before I slowly let my life slip away.

I asked why did you have to leave me. All I want to do is die. I need to get away from everything. So this is my final good-bye.

As I started to cut my wrists I started to fade away. As I struggle to get up in my bed I'm crying my eyes out and praying for just one more breath and for just one more day.

As I lay on my back and as I close my eyes. I think about the man that I love, hate and despise.

I just wanted to feel the pain of death instead of a broken heart. When you told me it was over my world literally fell apart.

The next morning I awoke and I'm in place up above. I look down at my family and I see that they miss me and they miss all of my love.

Than as soon as I know it I'm directed to you. The lord says this the reason you wanted to die. This is the person who made your world fall apart so you wern't willing to try.

You were looking at the pictures of us over our past 3 years. I know you were trying to hold it all in but you couldn't fight back the tears.

As I sit there and watch you, you whisper to yourself why? You say why did I ever let her go, and there was no reply.

You sit on your bed you're heart broken up so bad. I can see the hurt in your eyes and you were really mad.

You tried to hold it in but it only hurt you more. You got up from your bed and ran for your door.

You were running down the stairs and by surprise you saw something there were people all around your house that were yelling and screaming Mackenzie died!

You had no idea and your heart broke. You tried to get out some words but all you did was choke.

You ran down to the spot where you told her good-bye and you looked into the river and a tear started to roll from your eye.

You said that it was your fault and you wish you could take it back. When he finally realized that without Mackenzie in his life there was so much he lacked.

Before he found out Mackenzie was dead. He was going to write her a note but he picked up the phone instead.

He was going to call her and say he was sorry and he felt so bad. That her loved her and without her in his life he was nothing but sad.

But he just couldn't do it he couldn't find a way. He thought I'll call her later, tomorrow or the next day.

Remember he was still by the river and as he began to think about what he had done. He remembered all the great times and all the fun.

He stood there in a trans thinking she was the only one and he needed to be with her so his life needed to be over all said and done.

As he heard the train coming down the track. The memories started playing in his head and there was so much without her he lacked.

As the train came full speed ahead all you could hear was clink-clack and he whispered to himself I love her and there's no turning back....

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