No one will ever know

I'm sorry I hurt you so
I'm sorry I make you suffer
Just be thankful you don't know the real me
See that's what I mean
When it comes down to it
I only care about myself
I wouldn't make myself suffer
If I wasn't selfish
If you knew you would be heartbroken
You would want to curl up and die
Because I know you love me
And I know you care
But my words will sting
And you won't know what to do
Then you will be burdened with my ache
But then will you find out somehow
And be even more hurt
That I didn't tell you
I know you won't hate me
But you won't understand
You can't comprehend
I know what it is like to
Have questions that can
Never be answered
I don't want you to wonder
Will you loose all faith in me
Will your trust just fade away
I know you will constantly question
You might say you won't
But you mind can't help it
What am I talking about
I won't tell you
It's not real
It can't be
I won't let apprehension control me
I can handle it
It's not going to happen
My heart is fighting for a word
But I won't let it
I will lay motionless and let the world continue
I won't say anything
And no one will ever know