You think you know me!

Dear "friend"
I tell you one thing about my world
All of a sudden you know me?
Truth is you will never see
Last night you said I never try
What the heck is your problem
I came to you and all you did was make me cry!
You don't see my struggle
You'll never see my pain
People like you have everything to gain
Everybody gave up on me
Years before you came along
So where in this world do you think I belong
Tell me how often do you go to sleep?
Knowing all you have is this blade
Everyone thinking you have it made
For me that is just everyday
But I put on a happy face
Pretending everything is okay
You say you are here for me
You'll comfort me in times of disrepair
Thank you god for answering my freaking prayer
If you couldn't tell I like sarcasm
All you have ever done is stand in the back round
what you waiting for? me to drown?
Why don't you make your self useful
Get off your butt and help me win this fight
Help me make it through just one more night
God i am so sick of your crap
So, on second thought
Help me end my pain
All it takes is just one shot

*edited for content

Okay i was talking to a friend the other night about my problems and i said something and he was like well maybe if you actually tried! I was like hey there! i was angry and well it got me going!

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