Saddening Mind

I am always running,
always trying to hide.
Forgetting what I've known,
as my emotions collide.

Happiness fades in and out
as contentment is never found.
The peace within me still does slip,
to sadness I am bound.

Forget me not sweet tenderness,
that once did fill my soul.
Replaced by anger dark as sin
is what makes my heart cold.

People can't stop asking,
what's ailing my troubled mind.
But when intentions are untrue,
kind, fake words become entwined.

If no one cares, then why should I?
Mine's just another face.
It doesn't matter what's going on,
I'm just another disgrace.

My very good friend's drifting,
she doesn't seem to care.
I was always by her side,
but I need her, and she's not there.

No one knows the pain I've felt,
the coldness that's made me numb.
I dislike the feelings that I have,
but they're what I have become.

A cooling blanket of shadowed doubt,
is now what keeps me warm.
Absorbed in all my blurry thoughts,
that's what's become the norm.

Depression is an addiction,
A caffeine of some kind,
It soaks through the skin and into the heart,
then finds the saddened mind.