I'm back to when it all began
When I was dealt this awful hand
The tears fell freely down
I took my seat and my crown
Sitting upon lies and hate
Trying not to show every hit I take
Razor blade kisses on my skin
Playing a game that no human can win
Crying and breaking with everyday
Yet sitting silent with nothing to say
Lost deep down in the darkness
With every cut it hurt less
Pushing a smile on with all of my might
Trembling inside with fright
Scared to look up at the sky
For fear it might make me cry
Dying faster with every word
Sending out cries that couldn't be heard
Digging my hole so deep
I could drown in the tears I weep
More needles dug into my heart
Depression is something that would not part
The feeling kept getting stronger
Making it stay for much longer
No one helped me get up off the floor
Showed me that feeling that I once adored
Now my heart is cold as stone
I feel dark and alone
Ive got nothing to live for
For I don't feel anymore
No more pain, no more sad
But I will never again feel glad
I just sit here taking up space
With memories that wont erase
