More than a bad dream

She pushed herself harder, than what she's supposed to do
Does she know what she's doing, does she have a clue
She has the urge to purge
There is no holding back
Her view of herself image is what she seems to lack
She thinks she's to fat and doesn't seem to match
What she is doing is wrong
but to her, her life just seems to long
The food she hates
She's making a big mistake
She can't keep track of the calories she had
She thinks life CAN'T get worse but then gets raped by her own dad
to her the world has to end
but what she really needs is just a friend
The signs she showed just wasn't enough
She lost all hope, she lost all trust
She had to much inside
A bundle of fear
Before she could think clearly the end was near
There was no more fun and games to come
at least thats what it seems
she went into the closet and found her dads black gun
she shot herself once
thats all that it took
this time she wont wake up
and it is what it seems
this girls life was more than just a bad dream