Suicide; A few Hours to Go

My bodies weak
I can never sleep
The bloods confined to my body
and it won't escape
Not today
I am stronger than you think
I can fight this
And for once I will win
Though I want escape from life
I'll stay one more night
What will tomorrow bring
Happiness or grief
I can't do it now
I can see it in the headlines
"Suicide; A few Hours to Go!"
Only hours till my birthday
Till I turn just 15
What would they think
What would they say
To finally know
I hate myself that much
Enough to let go
You would probably ask why
Why didn't I seek your help
But if I remember rightly I did
You knew I cut
Depression, yes I suffer it
You knew that
I wouldn't act so innocent
Cause you know it's true
No matter what you do you can't deny
You knew how I was feeling
Though you didn't know why
But there will be no bloodshed tonight
No suicide will a few hours to go
Nothing