It Had to End This Way

Tell me God, is it time for me to go?
Tell me now..I must know

I can't keep going on like this now
I'll give it another day, that's my vow

And if tomorrow, I don't see the sunlight
Just know I tried to avoid this but I felt it was only right

This was my only option..all I could do
But know I never intended to hurt you

Ending my life was the only way
If I had a better life I would of stayed

Tell everyone I love them more then they'll ever know
But I had an endless number of reasons why I should go

I know you don't understand why it had to end like this
I hope one day you will, for that is my only wish

I'll look after you down from up above
I'll still be in your heart giving lots of love

Now as I stand here with the gun to my head
One quick motion is what everyone dreads

One loud sound
One lifeless body found

But please don't cry
Just try to understand why