What have i done?

Running
lungs burning
muscles tearing
heart exploding
mind eroding
habit relapsing
life capsizing
your image rising
my mind dying
sanity crying
insanity knocking
listening to your mocking
your hate far from shocking
all the same light is fading
your hate is growing
i hate this knowing
it leads me to fighting
but happiness is losing
my glee only posing
I only feel like hiding
knowing that I\'m dying
i feel like crying
i just wanna stop trying
you were the only reason
like my country
and i committed treason
now you lay far behind
still your image plagues my mind
still I\'m crying
commit the same violence on myself
that was done to you
make myself see
what Ive really done
and continue to do nothing but run...