Struggle

To Everyone I Look Fine
But My Outward Appearence Is Decieving
It Does Not Reflect My True Self
I'm drowning,
Drowning in a sea of broken hearts,
lost dreams
and confused feelings
The more I struggle the faster I drown
I'm losing this fight,
my energy is almost spent
when it does I will fade into nothingness
Some, the ones who actually care for me try to save me
the try to pull me out but can't
They know not why I am drowning
To Fight you have to know the enemy
they can't pull me out because they do not know what they fight
There is others,
the ones that drag me down farther
Every fight,
every broken heart
kills a part of me, takes a piece of my soul
and each time it drains some of my precious energy
I can't fight this
There's no running or hiding from it either
It's there, in my mind, drowning me in this sea of sorrow
I am fighting, I am trying
why i do not know
maybe for those who care for me,
maybe for myself
All I know is that I'm losing
I do not know how much longer I can keep fighting
Sometimes I just want to give up,
maybe that would be best
just maybe if I stop fighting the pain will end
that's all i want,