I cant stop this ache, I'm in so much pain, I wanna get out a knife and just let all of the blood drain, I feel like I'm locked up in chains and I just cant get away from this pain that I feel, I don't know how long this is going to last or if I will ever be able to heal, I feel like I don't belong anymore, but at the rate its going, my mom will wake up and see her daughters body sprawled out on the floor, but I know she wont care because she doesn't give a shit about me anymore, so ill just let the blood drain as it drips onto the bathroom floor, everything around me is turning black as I began to cry, I see you in my head and I feel like your there, your standing over me and asking me why I never told you how much pain I felt, but I knew that if I told you, you wouldn't have dealt with it in the way that was best for you, I want you to realize that the only person I loved was you, I just wish you knew how much you really meant to me, because as you can see I had to go, if I would have stayed here I wouldn't of had any happiness to show, I will miss you and I'm sorry it had to end this way, just don't forget that today I will become a happy person and I wont have to let my life worsen because of my mom, but now that I'm gone I will be able to watch over you from up above, and Ronny just remember that you will always be known as my true love.
