Rumors and talk

They talk about me behind my back,
Look at me like I am fading away,
When in reality I am to stay,
It hurts me so much sometimes,
Thinking about what I did to deserve this,
In this cold exterior there is a heart that exists,
So why do you choose to hurt me,
No one deserves to suffer as much as I do,
Does it make you feel alive or set free,
Now I say thank you,
I know the real person inside,
The one you try to hide,
Behind a wall of lies,
As my heart cries yours is happy,
Giving me tears that slowly fall down my cheek,
As I have no one to catch them,
No one to seek,
It is a pain i try to condemn,
It ends up only coming out,
Pouring to those closest,
I am left with doubt,
That I will feel something good within,
It is the end of you and I,
Wishing at one time it had never had to begin,
All the rumors around that you created were just a lie.