How it was and how it is now

"Mummy I love you"
"I love you to sweetheart"
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"Go fcuk your black man"
tears fall down my cheak

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"I DO SO MUCH AND GET NOTHING BACK"
What do you do?
Have a crap job and take it out on us?
Do you give a crap where I am..NO!
Do you worry about me when I go out.....NO!
Do you ever say I love you anymore??.......NO!
Do I love you........YES
Do I like you........NO
Do you love me.....NO
Do you like me......NO

I smoke and all you care about is the smell.
I cut and all you care about is the mess.
I wanna be a kid again before the hhostalwhen we were happy.
But no I will stay like this.
I will cry
I will hate
I will die and you wont care.