My last words

Tonight I sat in my room and thought
All those nights that I fought
Just to make this house,A better place
Tried to make this family embrace

But it just seemed to cause more pain
I promise I tried to keep the knife away from my vein
It was just something I could not cope
I just began to loose all hope

I lost hope in my life, My family and friends
Will this be it; It all depends
How my life is for the next little while
But just till then I'll put on this smile

I'll walk around, Like I don't even care
I'll make sure people are not aware
Of all the pain I feel deep inside
All of this pain, That I always hide

I just don't want people to think I'm a freak
That's why I don't show that I really am weak
But deep down inside I know how I feel
I know all the pain that I want to reveal

But I wont do it it until my death
Not until my one last breath
I will then say it to the crowd
I will say it nice and loud

"I hate you all, You guys were so blind,
You never even noticed all the pain that hid behind
This pretty little face, and this pretty little smile
All that pain that was there for awhile"

That will be my last spoken speech
I hope each of there hearts I reach
That will be my good bye
Those will we my last words I will say, befor I die

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