My Life

I'm not sure really what to say
or how to word this
i know this may sound childish
but i don't want to miss

depression has consumed me
and I'm never to return
i never had a normal life
no real lesson to learn

self-injury is like an addiction
there is no cure
I've hurt myself in so many ways
i know that there is no help.. for sure

as a little child
into my room he would creep
i never made a single sound
never a peep

the visions replay into my mind
the day i saw my cousin commit suicide
i knew there was not a thing that i could
every memory would collide

alcohol is a problem
and its all because of me
i wish that something would come along
and set me free

every night i pray
ask God why I'm so unhappy
why did he give me this life
and make it so crappy

i wonder why i am so empty
and i have nothing to spare
no feelings left
no more numbness to share

why will i lie
and say that I'm fine
when I'm really
walking a thin line

suicidal thoughts
ponder upon my mind
it will always be like this
I'll be stuck in this never ending bind..

*there are only some parts of this poem that are true, but its still all of my emotions. if you would vote and comment it would mean aLot!
-Katelyn