Scared of gettin close

I'm so scared to get close again...
I'm so scared to trust,
My past love said she loved me,
but it was just lust.

I want to get close to you,
I'm sick of feeling so blue,
If you could just understand,
it's not just about you, but me too.

You say because of me being scared, you "Miss Out"
But don't forget a relationship has two people
I am the one who has to live with the doubts.

Me being scared to open up makes me sick,
But I want so much to love and trust you
but baby i do love u too!