I can never fully explain just how much I love you and how it pains me to be away from you so I'm going to try and do the best that I can.......... I've loved you for such a long time and it hurts to know I am never on your mind. I told you that I loved you and you didn't say a word so I just walked away hoping my crying wouldn't be heard. You're such a great friend and I should be happy with that but how can I be happy when I've been stabbed. Everyone says to just forget about you but how can you forget about your life, your reason for being. I'd wake up each morning hoping to see your face there's no one in this world that can or ever will take your place. I've tried to get over you, I've tried to forget, but it seems that I just can't get you out of my head. Where do I start, for I don't know how to live in a world without you in it. I moved away hoping it would ease the pain but all I do is cry and scream your name and alas the pain is the same. The pain I feel each and every day just doesn't seem to want to go away. How can I go on in this lonely life when all I wanted was to be your wife. No matter how I tried you never loved me in that way and it hurts to know I can never be that someone, that someone you are to me. My pain is unbareable and I guess we'll have to wait and see how I exist with only half of me. Just one more thing before I go can you give me back my heart even though it's broken apart because I'm finding it hard to breathe. I love you Fidel and I always will.
