Absent Angel

Often objects just cease to exist
like you, my lovely box of lies
on all these memories i used to reminisce
now screaming out my foul goodbyes

i suppose that i should move on, however I'm secluded in this stance
until then my precious tragedy I'm trapped in a raging anger's trance

i mourn what shadows used to be, how you comforted every sorrow
and i collapse into crimson shards when i look into your soul and see that it is hollow
for me, you have no room, this former princess can be disposed
at least have some dignity and step down from your angel's pose

*and so i fell
on this mound of pain you've lain for me
and i drowned
just to feel a rose,
die in my hand
and I'm praying
to nothing, but absent angels*

so it seems this lurching pain inside my torso will not cease
that this ever-growing virus will continue to infect and never decrease
and i hope you know that your the one who burdened me with this infection
with promises of eternity and comforts expectation

soon ill be nothing, you'd teach, id learn
angels do abandon but planets do turn
angel you did preach but tell me, where do broken souls fly
what if forsaken screams are not the last songs that escape my cry?

shes fallen now and you cant breathe in her air
your wings are falling, your absent, and all she feels is ill despair
your miracles seem to be failing
rising angel, how did you fade?

when i lade upon my pillow knowing no demons beneath my bed
for you had checked before and planted kisses upon my head
then you shut the walls and they climbed their way from beneath rotting floors
and you listened to my screams while locking destruction's doors

how could you do such a thing as to leave me there to burn?
how could you watch a needing soul release the air they infernally yearned?
when you promised me the world then pretended to know me inside out
how could you forget my pain and act like we were nothing?

what a lie to weave a mess of tangles inside this perfect tapestry
how is it you could destroy our blissful symphony
how is it you control the pain inside your chest
you conquerer of sorrows, you darkened mourn infest

safety is an illusion in the emotion of reality
there are no words to sing this pain, no song to praise your betrayal

farewell my absent angel
your all broken promises and lier's tangles
webs of mass destruction you've spun from pain
sprawled upon drowning hope you'd lain

So when i see you in the hall and by chance the shadows you miss
if once you see me staring from them, i hope that you know this
I'm not looking at you, I'm seeing through you
and I'm seeing nothing but hollowed shells

*yes, this might not be the best piece of mine. It's actually a song, and is more meaningful when sung. In case you all couldn't tell, it was written in a state of anger that has yet to have relieve itself from my thoughts, so I did my best to proclaim it. (look out for more later...sorry) anyway that might be the excuse why it's so quick paced and simple.*